Happy New Year



Every blogger seems compelled to write something about the New Year, but I really don’t see the big deal about New Year’s Eve.  I’ve always been like this, even when I was healthy and now that I’m sick, my opinion hasn’t changed.  New Year’s Eve is a made up holiday, so that we can go out and party and have fun and wake up exhausted the next day.  Except now, I wake up exhausted every day and I don’t have the excuse of staying out too late or drinking too much.  The best part of New Year’s  is that it’s a day where I know I won’t have to drag myself to a doctor’s appointment.

I have tried to come up with New Year’s resolutions but really, my body is not my own, so my resolutions mainly have to be what I can change mentally.  I would love to say I’ll go to the gym more  or walk an extra mile a day, but these are impossible resolutions, that would set me up as a complete failure on day 1.

So my resolutions are:

  • To  surround myself with less toxic people
  • To  meditate each day and to continue practicing an Attitude of Gratitude
  • To connect more with people in my life, even if it’s only with an email or quick text
  • To continue my positive attitude, even when my fatigue is overwhelming and my pain is unbearable

I wish you all a Happy, Peaceful and Pain free 2014!!

Merry Christmas and Happy Always


As I sit in pajamas on this Christmas Eve, I think about the past year and reflect upon the progress I’ve made and the mine fields I’ve avoided.  Christmas isn’t my holiday, but I have always enjoyed the festivities associated with it and the passage it marks into the next year.

We all start the New Year with a clean slate, we can make whatever we want of the New Year.  Our choices are somewhat limited when we are ill, but we do still have choices.  Maybe we have to be wiser about how we spend our energy and our money, but those decisions are ours to make.  Maybe we have to find more sympathetic doctors, or find alternative treatments, but thankfully we have some options.

I would like to focus on the improvements I notice in myself, however slight and probably invisible to anyone but me, but I am better off than I was a year ago.  I can walk a little farther,  I can stand a little longer and I can still laugh at the crazy and unpredictable things that happen to me on a day to day basis.

I wish everyone a Very, Very Happy Holiday and a Peaceful and Pain free New Year.