Funny, wish that person was me and I was able to walk around and shovel. Never thought I’d say that, but unfortunately I am once again stuck inside waiting out a terrible snow storm that is hitting our area. These feelings of helplessness come across in waves and I always tell myself, next time I will think differently and I am trying to not obsess about all the things I can’t do.
I live on the East Coast in the United States and we are having a winter with record low temperatures and lots of snow. I live by myself and my mom, who is recently widowed, lives about 2 blocks from me. When I became ill, I was living in NYC and loved living there, but when you are ill and on disability, NYC is a very lonely and extremely expensive place to live. People can’t visit because there is no where to park during the day, the traffic scares people away and being without a car, I either had to walk or take public transportation, which isn’t suitable for my current lifestyle.
So I decided to move to an outer borough and be close to my family. For the first time in my life (as I had lived in NYC since 1993) I am dealing with shoveling snow, clearing off cars and maneuvering on snowy unplowed streets. Once again, in anticipation of a big storm, with upwards of 14 inches of snow, I am staying with my mom. This allows me to make sure she is alright during the storm, we have company for the duration and our car can be safely parked in a covered garage, which eliminates the need for me to shovel or clear the car.
So while many of the essentials have been taken care of, I still have thoughts of helplessness. The “what if scenarios aren’t always that beneficial when you have an overactive mind. I have been listening to Louis Hay’s audio about how to love yourself and one of the things she states is that We Need to LOVE OURSELVES enough to stop SCARING OURSELVES. She also emphasizes how we need to stop terrorizing ourselves with bad thoughts.
When I listen to her audio, it all sounds so easy. Just stop your thoughts and wham your life will be different. Be kind to your mind. Everything she says is so true and really easy to comprehend but not all that easy to implement.
It appears that I will be stuck in for a while and hopefully I will emerge a stronger person and listen to the words of Ms. Hay,s as she has a loyal following and really does speak simple but powerful truths.