How many times have I been asked by friends, family and doctors “How do you pass the days at home? What do you do?” Really what do I do but the time still passes.
I have been in since Wednesday and what have I accomplished and why don’t I feel rested and raring to go?
Each day consists of little activity, lots of rest and this is the cycle I find myself in. I don’t watch television at all during the day and I do limit my internet time as it exhausts me too. If I look back at what I accomplished in the past 2 days, it would have to be doing laundry and dusting. How can I explain to a healthy person, that doing laundry is my activity for the day and add in a shower and I’m done. That’s it, no more spoons left.
It really is hard to explain to others, what I don’t understand, yet seem to accept. I have accepted where I am in life right now and there are days that frustrate me and torment me, but they pass and then I am alright again. What I find harder to accept is when people say, “Don’t you get tired of going to the doctor” or “Don’t you get tired of resting?” Lately my response has been what rational person wouldn’t, so why are you even asking me that ridiculous question. If I have accepted my life and current situation why can’t some people around me accept it.